This Side of Eternity

Maybe it's my job
For my soul to bleed
Might be my privilege
To drown in this sea
Why am I like this?
Is this what life's supposed to be
Why is it like this?
I know that you hear my plea
And so I've tried and tried
And tried a million times
To see the brighter side of this
But I'm at the end of myself
I want to be
All that You want me to be
But everything's broken in me
I just need some kind of peace
Please help me be
All that You want me to be
'Cause everything's broken in me
And so I'm wondering if You'll be my peace
On this side of eternity
What is wrong with me?
Maybe I'm deranged
I feel so alone
Surrounded by strange
I just want to know
If I'll be okay
I need you to know
That I'm not okay
I've tried and tried and tried a million times
To fight the poison eating me alive
So I'm at the end of myself
What's wrong with me??
Why can't I seem to break free??
Oh everything's broken in me
I just need some kind of peace
Please help me be
All that You want me to be
'Cause everything's broken in me
And so I'm wondering if You'll be my peace
On this side of eternity
One day I'll see
I will be forever free
Everything broken in me
Will be made new every piece
On Your side of eternity