Title of song lyric: On that night that could n’t be the future 未来になれなかったあの夜に
「色々あったな」の 色々の一つ一つを
つまびらかにしたくて ペンを取ったわけですが
もう君の好きにしてよ 僕も大概好きにしてきた
僕の事は忘れて 他に行きたい場所があるんなら
名誉ある潔い撤退より 泥にまみれ無様な前進を
尻尾を振る称賛の歌より 革命の最中響く怒号を
あの日の情熱の火はいずこ 悔しさを並べたプレイリスト
そぞろリピート音楽と風景 後悔、浄化する過去の巡礼
まさかお前、生き別れたはずの 青臭い夢か？恐れ知らずの
酒のつまみの思い出話と 成り下がるには眩しすぎたよ
なじられたなら怒ってもいいよ 一人で泣けば誰にもバレないよ
そんな夜達に「ほら見たろ？」って 無駄じゃなかったと抱きしめたいよ
未来になれなかった あの夜に
前向きに生きることほど素晴らしいことはない
でも「前向きに生きて」じゃ 頷けない誰かさんの為
夢追い人とは ともすれば社会の孤児だ
手段は選ばない いや、選べなかったんだ
恨み辛みや妬み嫉みの グラフキューブで心根を塗った
それでも尚塗りつぶせなかった 余白の部分が己と知った
今更弱さ武器にはしないよ それが僕らがやってきたことの
正しさの証明と知っている 今この僕があの日の答えだ
見える人にだけ見える光だ 陰こそ唯一光の理解者
旅立ちと言えば聞こえはいいが 全部投げ出して逃げ出したんだ
孤独な夜の断崖に立って 飛び降りる理由あと一つだけ
そんな夜達に「くそくらえ」って ただ誰かに叫んで欲しかった
未来になれなかった あの夜に
取り立てる程不幸ではないが 涙は路銀程に支払った
僕の過去の轍を見る人よ ここで会うのは偶然じゃないさ
夢も理想も愛する人も 信じることも諦めたけど
ただ一つだけ言えること僕は 僕に問うこと諦めなかった
醜い君が罵られたなら 醜いままで恨みを晴らして
足りない君が馬鹿にされたなら 足りないままで幸福になって
孤独な奴らが夜の淵で もがき苦しみ明日も諦めて
そんな夜達に「ざまあみろ」って 今こそ僕が歌ってやるんだ
未来になれなかった あの夜にざまあみろ
Romanization
" iroiro atta na" no iroiro no hitotsu hitotsu o
Tsumabiraka ni shitakute pen o totta wake desu ga
Mō kimi no suki ni shite yo boku mo taigai suki ni shitekita
Boku no koto wa wasurete ta ni ikitai basho ga aru n nara
Meiyo aru isagiyoi tettai yori doro ni mamire buzamana zenshin o
Shippo o furu shōsan no uta yori kakumei no saichū hibiku dogō o
Ano hi no jōnetsu no hi waizu ko kuyashisa o narabeta pureirisuto
Sozoro ripi-to ongaku to fūkei kōkai, jōkasuru kako no junrei
Masaka omae, iki wakareta hazu no aokusai yume ka? osoreshirazu no
Sake no tsumami no omoidebanashi to narisagaru ni wa mabushisugita yo
Najirareta nara okotte mo ii yo ichi nin de nakeba dare ni mo barenai yo
Sonna yorutachi ni" hora mitaro?" tte muda janakatta to dakishimetai yo
Mirai ni narenakatta ano yoru ni
Maemuki ni ikiru koto hodo subarashii koto wa nai
Demo" maemuki ni ikite" ja unazukenai dareka san no tame
Yume oijin to wa tomosureba shakai no koji da
Shudan wa erabanai iya, erabenakatta n da
Uramitsurami ya netami sonemi no gurafu kyu-bu de kokorone o nutta
Soredemo nao nuritsubusenakatta yohaku no bubun ga onore to shitta
Imasara yowasa buki ni wa shinai yo sore ga bokura ga yattekita koto no
Tadashisa no shōmei to shitteiru ima kono boku ga ano hi no kotae da
Mieru hito ni dake mieru hikari da kage koso yuiitsukō no rikaisha
Tabidachi to ieba kikoe wa ii ga zenbu nagedashite nigedashita n da
Kodokuna yoru no dangai ni tatte tobioriru riyū ato hitotsu dake
Sonna yorutachi ni" kuso kurae" tte tada dare ka ni sakende hoshikatta
Mirai ni narenakatta ano yoru ni
Toritateru hodo fukō de wa nai ga namida wa rogin hodo ni shiharatta
Boku no kako no wadachi o miru hito yo koko de au no wa gūzen janai sa
Yume mo risō mo aisuru hito mo shinjiru koto mo akirameta kedo
Tada hitotsu dake ieru koto boku wa boku ni tou koto akiramenakatta
Minikui kimi ga nonoshirareta nara minikui mama de urami o harashite
Tarinai kimi ga baka ni sareta nara tarinai mama de kōfuku ni natte
Kodokuna yatsura ga yoru no fuchi de mogaki kurushimi ashita mo akiramete
Sonna yorutachi ni" zamāmiro" tte ima koso boku ga utatteyaru n da
Mirai ni narenakatta ano yoru ni
Zamāmiro
English Translation
Wanting to elaborate on the various little things when I had said "a lot happened,"
I took up my pen.
Just do as you like. I also have, largely, done as I've liked.
Forget all about me. If you have somewhere else you'd like to go, that is.
Rather than a man's honorable retreat, an unsightly, muddied advancement.
Rather than a song of praise with wagging tails, a roar that resounds admist revolution.
Where are the flames of passion from that day? A playlist of itemized frustration.
Restless repeat of music and scenery. A pilgrimage to a regret purifying past.
Are you serious-- is it that naive dream I thought you fell out of touch with? That fearless one?
It was far too dazzling to be brought down to talk of the past over beer snacks.
If you get told off, you can get mad. If you cry alone no one will find out.
To those kinds of nights, I want to tell you that saying "You see?" wasn't for nothing and embrace you.
To that night that couldn't become the future.
It's not something wonderful enough to live life facing forward.
But I do it for a certain someone who just can't agree to live like that.
Dream chasers are prone to being orphans of society.
We can't choose the means-- no, we couldn't.
I painted my feelings with a graphite stick of grudges and hard feelings, jealousy and envy.
I naturally came to know the blank spaces that still, I couldn't paint over.
It's too late now, I won't turn my weaknesses into weapons. I know that they're proof that
the things we've done were correct. This me of right now is the answer to that day.
It's a light that can only be seen by people who can see it. Shadow is the sole understander of light.
It sounds nice to say you're starting on a journey, but I had thrown everything out and run away.
Standing on a cliff on a night of solitude, just one more reason needed to jump.
To those kinds of nights, I just wanted someone to scream out "Fuck you."
To that night that couldn't become the future.
I'm not so misfortunate to have racked up debt, but I've paid my share of traveling expenses in tears.
All of you who see the wheel tracks of my past, it's no coincidence that we meet here.
Though I've given up on my dreams, ideals, the people I love, and believing,
The only one thing I can say is that I never gave up on asking myself things.
If the unsightly you is spoken ill of, clear your grudge, unsightly as you are.
If the insufficient you is made a fool of, become happy, insufficient as you are.
The lonely will struggle and anguish in the abyss of night, and give up on even tomorrow.
To those nights, I say "go to hell." And right now I'll sing it for you.
To that night that couldn't become the future.
Go to hell.